Diving through the crashing wave ©2020 Joan M. Newcomb, CPC
After a year and a half of traveling to New York to care for my brother who suffered a stroke, exhaustion caught up with me and I put a pause on my regular ezines/blogs and YouTube videos. I felt like I was saying the same thing over and over again.
I thought about starting over in February, but the coronavirus spread all over the world and it seems that it was at the forefront. The first reported cases in the US were in the Seattle area in February, and I attended a large gathering at the Seattle Center on February 22. I then flew to New York City just as a single case was reported there. On March 1 I flew to Spain and, during the seventeen days there, I witnessed the city of Madrid go from being rarely casual about the outbreak (“there are only 400 cases in a city of 4 million”, to going into complete lockdown 14 March – People weren’t even allowed to go out to exercise. Only one person in a car. You could be fined 50-600 euros for being on the street if you didn’t go to buy essentials.
I flew back to New York on March 17 and isolated myself for 14 days. I thought it was just a cold, but now with better awareness of the symptoms, I am convinced it was a mild version of COVID19. While in New York City, my sister-in-law came down with much more recognizable symptoms, and I was there for a full month helping her recover and doing everything I could to keep my disabled brother from getting it.
I’ve been on Vashon Island since April 16 (I didn’t leave the house at all for the first 14 days) and I feel like I’m barely getting my head above water.
It’s been an intense few months and it’s not over yet.
Regardless of the city I find myself in, the fear is palpable every time I go out. I have been hesitant to give a spiritual perspective on what is going on, feeling that neutrality could be confused with being disconnected or in denial. Also, if I’m so good at what I do, why am I in this parallel Universe? Why haven’t I changed, fixed or manipulated this hologram?
Here’s the thing: this is all part of the shift in Consciousness. What is falling apart, what is disintegrating in our lives, whether physically or emotionally, is due to a greater Consciousness being formed.
Now I used to resist pessimists who said, ‘not everyone is going to make it’. And yet, wow, we’re seeing a lot of deaths in a short period of time. But one way to look at it is that there is no death, our loved ones have just left their physical forms for the loving embrace of a greater Consciousness. There is nothing good or bad about dying or the amount of time you spend in a physical life. Also from my “5D” perspective, there are parallel universes where their bodies are still alive. And as Consciousness we are always connected, whether we are together in body or not.
My interpretation of “5D” is not that we are all going to change, one of my favorite astrologers thinks that means death. What I have found is that as I experience myself as a Greater Consciousness moving more into my body, my reality feels lighter and more fluid. Time is malleable. The ground connection is different. Physical reality is less dense. It’s like going from dial-up to Wi-Fi.
As Awareness, I totally agree with what is happening, even when my personality rages against it. It is not about superimposing a rosy vision on what is. It’s more like watching a city, a neighborhood, or a world go through an upgrade. Telephone poles are torn down, sewers are dug up, squalid housing is condemned.
At this time it is very evident that this is a world of opposites. The loudest and the weakest are in power, the old paradigms that fight so hard to continue imposing are fading. I see that what is emerging is a new inner sense of empowerment, that we are all inherently and uniquely valuable. As we expand our consciousness, the old definitions also fade in terms of gender and sex.
It is not easy, and it will not end in a minute or a month, this transition will continue to unfold.
A while ago, while playing in the waves at the beach, I learned not to turn my back on the ocean when a giant wave came toward me. Just jump through it to the other side. As these waves of change come our way, face them, take a deep breath and immerse yourself in them. Reality will be much more fun on the other side.